I'm a white 57 year old single man. My wife's death 5 years ago was a complete surprise to everyone who knew her. I have been having fantasies about sucking a cock for about 20 years. I got my chance about 2 years ago when I was propositioned by a guy in a bar. We went to my place and for the 1st time in my life, I sucked a man's cock. He sucked and fucked me and I had a lot of pain when he was fucking me. We spent the night having sex and talking about gay fantasies. I have been with 3 other men several times and an additional 9 times with Kevin since we 1st met. I have never had a bad time with any of the men I have been having sex with. I even dance with other men at gay bars. Geraldine was a wonderful wife, but not the sexual companion that the men I have been having sex with are. I often ask myself what I would be if I had discovered how great gay sex can be before I married. Wally Chambers